I wasn't going to blog about this because I feel so dumb. Plus, I don't want to be one of those blogs that just kind of waxes on about the same exact thing over and over again in finitum. But then I thought, this is my space to let myself say what I'm feeling so I will. If you are tired of my endless paranoia please skip this post.
I think little guy might have stomped on my cervix because I was just sitting there watching Public Enemies and felt a weird feeling on my cervix from inside the womb. I know babies River Dance on their mother's cervix so I didn't freak. Then half an hour later I felt a weird pain high up in my vagina where the cervix is. It lasted 30-60 seconds and then it went away. It got me a bit more paranoid but again- y'all have told me this is normal, so I didn't freak. Then I went to use the bathroom and when I wiped a red little mucus strand type thing came out and then some slight discharge clear and whitish. The red ball of mucus was very small, the size of a grain of rice, but when it comes to my vagina, my least favorite color is red no matter how big or small.
Little guy is giving me occassional taps. His heartbeat is going strong. I have no more discharge, nor do I have any other signs that anything is amiss. So I'm telling myself that all is well and that this mucus thing might be leftover from the suppository I took for BV (which btw- a lab test confirmed I DID NOT have and was advised to stop taking the suppository three days into treatment?) But I'm nervous because well, I don't like red anywhere near or around that area.
I'm feeling stupid. I don't want to call the doctor tomorrow to have the same nurse call once again to hear this paranoid person saying she's scared. I'm feeling eye rolls if I walk in and they examine me and tell me all is well. I keep asking Jack, should I call tomorrow. He says I should just to give me peace of mind. So I guess I will, but I'm feeling like the boy who cried wolf. Except I'm not doing this for attention. I'm not doing this on purpose. I'm just a nut.
**Thank you for reassuring me its okay. I sometimes forget I'm allowed to call and not feel bad about it. The nurse said to monitor it and if it happens again to call. From the sound of it she thinks its just leftover suppository that may have irritated my cervix. I feel better that I said something though. I guess despite how far into this pregnancy I am I'll be resorting to the phrase I used to get me through the first: So far so good.