It's been a while since I last blogged which feels strange since I normally blog daily. We're in Orlando visiting my parents and brothers. It's amazing to see their joy. We finally told Jack's sister (she lives in Florida) and she was mildly amused, but my family. . . wow. My little brother plays an altered version of "got your nose" with sunflower, and my mom says hello to him each morning. He's already their nephew and grandchild. In contrast, since finding out, his sister is very distant and cold. When I think about her apathetic expressions I feel so sad, but maybe she is in my life so I can better appreciate those who are truly happy for us.
My mom also had a sit down reality check with me. She told me I look blatantly pregnant and people aren't mentioning it because they don't want to be rude. She also told me the tanks with sweaters I'm wearing make me look like an overflowing muffin (only a mother can say it I guess). So I got dragged to a maternity store for my first maternity tops and wow. . . it feels so awesome to truly fit into clothes again! Maternity clothes really accentuate your bump though and I find myself staring at it in awe.
I have never looked forward to a new year as much as I have this one. We normally eat dinner in and watch a movie and countdown together but this year Jack really wanted to make it special. We are SO happy to put 2009 behind us and so excited about 2010. But we inquired too late and all the good restaurants were booked and the shows we wanted to attend were sold out. We ended up going to Cele.bra.tion, FL to watch fireworks and the advertised bands and eat burgers from the vendors. When we got there, there were no bands or burgers, and the fireworks got canceled. A part of me felt nervous sitting across from the dark lake for fireworks that never came. Did the ushering in of 2010 portend what it would hold? I'm telling myself, no. This was simply a symbolic way to end 2009, a year of dark lakes with fireworks that never came. I pray 2010 will be happier. I pray 2010 will be a beautiful way to put the memories of 2009 to rest.
i don't think the cancellation of the firework is a bad omen, maybe it was just the universe's way of giving you and jack a little more time to focus on each other. i am SO glad your family had such a great reaction to the pregnancy, i know jack's family's reaction was very underwhelming and disappointing and you deserve to have people be happy for you damnit! isn't it weird how maternity clothes immediately accentuate the bump? i hope you're enjoying your vacation!!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you are embracing that bump... I think it's time to tell the world. You have earned it.
ReplyDeleteBummer about the fireworks! But no, it's not symbolic. At our wedding, DH and I couldn't get our unity candle lit -- we were outside and the wind kept blowing it out. I smiled at him and said, "It's not an omen." It's only been 7 1/2 years, but so far we get happier together every year. :)
Wishing you a wonderful 2010, with many happy memories of your first months with sunflower.
Glad to see you've had such a great time with your family. So where's the belly shot in the fantastic new clothes??? You can't just post a teaser about how obviously pg you are looking and then not show it off!
ReplyDeleteI think the universe (or God, if you're religiously inclined) was saving you from food poisoning from sketchy street vendors and keeping little sunflower from getting scared by the loud banging noises from the fireworks. No way was it a bad omen!
Fireworks are highly overrated - all flash and sizzle. When everyone knows that the important stuff is the hand you're holding while you're waiting for them to start. And between your family and your Jack, it sure sounds like you've got the important stuff in plenty. Happy 2010!
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year! So glad you are comfortable and that you bought some clothes!!!
ReplyDeleteThey do accentuate the bump. But oh how comfy to not be poured into clothes!
ReplyDeleteWork that bump girl! You deserve a little bit of celebration. So what about the fireworks, that's typically more of a logistics thing than an omen. It's all just timing and technology. Hoping that you get all of your heart's desire in 2010. All the best to you and your husband and the sunflower.
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm so happy to read about your family. That must have been an incredible experience. Enjoy your new clothes :) And enjoy looking forward to all the wonderful things 2010 has in store for you. I, for one, can't wait to watch them unfold :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a special nye - even if it didn't go exactly as expected. It's the thought and the effort that make it sound so special. I'm glad to hear your family is excited and I have to say - I don't know what I would do if my SIL acted like yours. How infuriating. What a horrible person.
ReplyDeleteMaternity clothes represent such a right of passage for me. Something I dream about, aspire too, but barely let myself even glance at now. It will be my great reward, should I ever make it that far. I know 'most women' hate maternitywear, but 'most women' haven't had to work so hard to get it. Relish the point you're at - no one deserves it more. I hope the new clothes make you feel wonderful!
Yeah, you finally get to enjoy the pregnancy and the glory and beauty of the baby bump. I understand (better than I'd like to) not wanting to come out with it too early, but you must feel so much better having it out in the open and having your family celebrate with you. You deserve to revel in this pregnancy, and you still have plenty of time left to do exactly that.
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