It's been a while since I last blogged which feels strange since I normally blog daily. We're in Orlando visiting my parents and brothers. It's amazing to see their joy. We finally told Jack's sister (she lives in Florida) and she was mildly amused, but my family. . . wow. My little brother plays an altered version of "got your nose" with sunflower, and my mom says hello to him each morning. He's already their nephew and grandchild. In contrast, since finding out, his sister is very distant and cold. When I think about her apathetic expressions I feel so sad, but maybe she is in my life so I can better appreciate those who are truly happy for us.
My mom also had a sit down reality check with me. She told me I look blatantly pregnant and people aren't mentioning it because they don't want to be rude. She also told me the tanks with sweaters I'm wearing make me look like an overflowing muffin (only a mother can say it I guess). So I got dragged to a maternity store for my first maternity tops and wow. . . it feels so awesome to truly fit into clothes again! Maternity clothes really accentuate your bump though and I find myself staring at it in awe.
I have never looked forward to a new year as much as I have this one. We normally eat dinner in and watch a movie and countdown together but this year Jack really wanted to make it special. We are SO happy to put 2009 behind us and so excited about 2010. But we inquired too late and all the good restaurants were booked and the shows we wanted to attend were sold out. We ended up going to Cele.bra.tion, FL to watch fireworks and the advertised bands and eat burgers from the vendors. When we got there, there were no bands or burgers, and the fireworks got canceled. A part of me felt nervous sitting across from the dark lake for fireworks that never came. Did the ushering in of 2010 portend what it would hold? I'm telling myself, no. This was simply a symbolic way to end 2009, a year of dark lakes with fireworks that never came. I pray 2010 will be happier. I pray 2010 will be a beautiful way to put the memories of 2009 to rest.