Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Waiting for the Appointment

Thanks for your words of support from yesterday. I'm feeling quite high strung right now and I don't know why. Couldn't sleep last night, puttering around the house uselessly. The spotting is much lighter now but I noticed a pinkish tinge, very faint, and you had to look it at like you do when you're examining a 9dpo pregnancy test but it was a pinkish tinge, which is said to be a potential sign of amniotic fluid, but I haven't had another contraction since yesterday. I see Dr.MFM at 2pm and I'll bring up all these concerns but I'm scared. My stomach literally feels like its in knots. I will be honest, I don't know if I'm just worrying for nothing, that this is just a symptom of me waiting for the other shoe to drop, or if my fears are justified. I think its just being on the bad side of statistics so often that though the chances are minimal that anything is wrong is enough to make me nervous. Taking deep breaths. Everything will be okay. What will be will be. So far so good.
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  1. AnonymousDecember 23, 2009 at 8:59 AM

    O jan I'm so sorry you're having to go through this wretched anxiety again!

    You're in my heart & prayers - please let us know what they say as soon as you are able.

    Love you so much-
    Baraka

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  2. BluebirdDecember 23, 2009 at 9:12 AM

    I'm sorry honey, SO sorry that you're having to deal with this worry and stress and fear and anxiety. I am wishing you so much strength and peace right now, and will be anxiously awaiting your update letting us know that everything is just fine. I am so hopeful for you. ((Hugs))

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  3. SunnyDecember 23, 2009 at 9:13 AM

    This is so hard... I'm so sorry. I will be thinking of you today while traveling and will check in as soon as I can! Prayers up for a simple and completely non-threatening explaination.

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  4. AnonymousDecember 23, 2009 at 9:41 AM

    I've been thinking of you all day, and hoping all turns out all right at your appointment. Sending happy thoughts to you and Sunflower all day!

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  5. DawnDecember 23, 2009 at 10:16 AM

    Praying that your appointment goes well.

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  6. AnonymousDecember 23, 2009 at 10:38 AM

    your fears are totally justified, anytime you see pink or red when your pregnant it's very scary, but it's also normal and while pink could mean fluid it can also mean regular plain old normal spotting, and that's what i think you've got, i think you and your little baby are going to be just fine. good luck, can't wait to hear how the appt goes.

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  7. lillyDecember 23, 2009 at 10:51 AM

    of course you're frightened...rightly so. i'm thinking you're about to go into your appointment right about now....i have no idea how lovenox affects these things, making spotting more common, but that's what i'm hoping is causing these episodes. thinking of you and hoping for good news.
    p.s. sorry i've been mia lately...i'm back now.

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  8. IF Optimist, then...December 23, 2009 at 11:48 AM

    You have every right to feel frightened and I hope your appointment has helped set you mind at ease. Sending lots of good vibes your way for a good outcome.

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  9. KateDecember 23, 2009 at 12:38 PM

    Hope this afternoon's appointment went well. I'm convinced sunflower is destined to go the course, though apparently not without scaring you a few times along the way.

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  10. IllanareDecember 23, 2009 at 2:16 PM

    Hope everything goes well. Thinking of you.

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  11. MicheleDecember 23, 2009 at 3:20 PM

    praying right now...

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