I don't check for blood anymore. I guess that was my first mistake. Today as I was about to step into the shower I realized there is unmistakable brown spotting, and not just a little bit. After the shower I don't see any spotting but it was there.
The doctor told me to come in right away. A cervix check showed all was closed and no bleeding to be seen. We listened to the heartbeat boom away on the doppler and I am now home told that all is well and there's nothing to worry about.
In the past week I began looking at mommy playgroups. I even browsed a maternity clothing store on-line. I considered buying my first baby outfit. When I close my eyes I see my child. I see us sitting by the lake near my house feeding the ducks. This child in my womb is real. She is mine. I want her.
Yet today was another reminder, though all is well, though I feel relief, that nothing in this world is guaranteed.
How scary, I'm sorry! I'm glad that your doctor was able to get you in so quick, if for nothing more then to ease your mind!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the scare, but praise God the baby is safe. I hope you are able to relax soon and enjoy this pregnancy without too much fear.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure it made your heart drop -- I'm sorry you had to go through that. I hope it doesn't happen again.
ReplyDeleteIt's so not guaranteed. I'm glad you were able to confirm quickly that everything was ok, that must have been so scary. And yet to anyone who hasn't struggled with IF of course it would be just another 'normal' thing to have happen. Everything is so much more fragile once you've entered this world. Everything. Again i'm REALLY glad to hear everything looks good.
ReplyDeletescary, i'm glad everyhting's ok though.
ReplyDeleteshit how scary, I am so, so sorry - why can't it just get better and stay better?
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I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I know they say brown blood is ok, but you know? Blood is never ok. Except it sounds like this is. Glad sunflower's fine, hope you can relax enough to get back to fine. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you could quickly get reassurance that Sunflower's ok, and that it was just a bit of brown spotting. But now I hope it stays away for the rest of your pregnancy!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for such a scare, although of course thrilled that everything's okay. Thinking of you!
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