Thursday, March 17, 2011

Could it? No. Maybe? Sigh.

I'm not sure how but I've found myself in a two week wait. It was not expected nor planned as I wanted to give my body at least 18 months to heal before thinking about it. I'm on a weight loss kick having shed about 12 pounds since January and wanted to be in good physical shape before putting my body through the ringer again. Plus I'm not on metformin and my cycles have gone wonky again [Thank you PCOS]- and yet I think spontaneity may have coincided with ovulation. . . I tell myself its nothing. It could be nothing- and yet- there I go again- looking at signs, wondering if the headache means something, the sprouting of nausea- even though its only been 5 days and no signs appear so soon- and then I think I've been pregnant three times and I'm feeling similar things? But then I wonder if I'm delusional- because five days.

So we'll see. March 27th I'll test if I need to. What goes after if its two lines? The lovenox and doctor appointments and GD fun part deux? I'm going to take it one day at a time. Ovulation does not always equal pregnancy- and sadly pregnancy does always not equal baby. Still- I have W this time- and I think that's going to make all the difference.

I already sound saner than last time don't I?

Clearly this is not on my regular blog- but I needed a place to sort through it- so obviously its a big old bloggy secret until I know something! :)

9 comments:

  1. I know you were hoping to try again - here's hoping this is it and you don't have to worry about 'trying'. Hoping for a little sister or brother for W. in about 8.5 months! KEEP ME POSTED!!!

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  2. Wow, another two week wait! I am waiting anxiously with you!

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  3. Thanks guys! We'll see what happens. It's never a given as we all know- but it would be nice if it could be so simple the next time- like the myths always say?

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  4. Oh, goodie! I keep my fingers crossed for you!

    I am still waiting for ovulation to occur, even though it is CD 19 and nada...

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  5. Oh goodness. I'll be waiting along with you... can't wait for an update.

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  6. Am cramping as we speak- this is either very good. or very bad. Hm.

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  7. I am late the game but anxiously awaiting!!!!

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  8. I had the same thing these past couple weeks. It's like I talked about waiting but then when it comes down to talking about or using protection, we usually just don't. So I started monitoring and wondering and waiting and had a similar attitude - nothing is as big a deal as it used to be now that my son is here. Still it was exciting. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you view my situation and my troubles with DH lately) the results are in and I'm not at all pregnant. :( Hopeful for you though.

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