Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Late periods, PCOS and weight loss.

You guys are the best. Thank you. I would never wish our journeys on anyone but the community of support you guys provide? Everyone should be so lucky. I hope I do the same for you.

The thoughts on my last post were precipitated by my first period this month. The hope began flickering- a period meant hope of future periods- of ovulation. I grew more hopeful about three weeks ago when I had the telltale signs of ovulation right on time. I am not ready to try again, but I took this as a sign that I'd be one of those people whose bodies became normal after having a child.

No period.

I'm now quite late- I've been bloated, crampy, PMS-y but- no period. It might come. I hope it will. But now its late. It's late. And it means that my friend PCOS is still here ready to party.

I'm not on Metformin, the one that helped regulate me because my OB said to hold off while I am nursing- so I'm trying to figure out what to do. The weight- despite my greatest efforts- is not budging. I can't fit into most of my clothes pre-pregnancy and the weight issue is beginning to take over my thoughts. This isn't me. I feel like I'm wearing a warm winter coat over my real body. But thanks to PCOS losing the weight is infinitely harder.

There are many reasons to lose weight. Feeling confident, fitting into clothes again, preventing diabetes, but most of all its getting rid of PCOS. My doctor says if I can lose the weight, the PCOS will go away.

Now that he's on solids I'm trying to be stricter with my diet. I want to fix this. As much as PCOS is a culprit hurting my metabolism, and making me fight harder than other people to see a drop in the scale- the truth? The truth is I do eat thing that are bad for me and I have to give myself longer than a month of not seeing the scale budge before I give up.

So here's hoping. Hoping that by May. My son's birthday- I can be at a normal BMI again like I was once-upon-a-time- I'd like to think that I don't want to try again until I'm there- but then I wonder if I'll ever get there so I am hesitant to make such a bold assertion.

PS: I don't post much here because I am posting more at my regular non-anonymous site if you want the link just send me an e-mail- I've gotten over my paranoia on that :)


  1. ugh. So sorry you're dealing with this. I decided it's time to start watching what I eat in an attempt to get back to my pre-IVF weight and it DOES suck, & I don't even have PCOS to deal with, just a standardly sluggish 41-year-old's metabolism.

    Do you read Michelle's blog? She's another PCOSer who's dieting to get back down to pre-twins weight, and actually having some good success. zap me a line if you want her blog address - I've found her recent weightloss posts to be inspirational, & you, dealing with the same medical issues, might too.

    Hang in there. And if you want a weight-loss buddy to be accountable to, I'm here, doing the same thing, for many of the same reasons. Just let me know.

  2. I've been on metformin since a couple weeks into BF because it was supposed to help my supply, and my family doc was totally on board, and even suggested it. Don't see why you couldn't take it too...

  3. Argh, this is one thing I'm most dreading. Losing weight has always been hard for me, so I'm sure it's going to get even harder! What makes it even more pressing is the knowledge that what we want most - a baby - is more likely if we can only get it off! Argh.

  4. I read your other blog but haven't signed on to follow it yet--if I follow that one should I un-follow this one so the two aren't linked or does that probably not matter?